Hi & Assalamualikum beautiful creatures,
Okay, tonight,
I was listening to Aida Azlin's video while drawing and I heard something that hit right at my head and it truly touched my heart and that is when she said this:
"I see myself as a bedouin man. I come with a lot of flaws, and I come with the very little that I have, but when I meet Allah in that brokenness, Allah rewards me with even more things. A lot of us think 'what does my imperfect solah do?' 'my broken Arabic when I recite my Quran', or 'my fast that is not perfect', or 'my prayer that is not consistent? Its nothing! how will that please Allah?' but what we fail to remember is that Allah doesn't need this worship to form us. He is ever-mighty, and he doesn't decrease in power just because we don't worship Him. But when we come to Him, in all of our brokenness, with whatever thing that we can afford to do, He will reward us, way way more than we expect."
Hadith Quds: If he comes to me walking, I'll come to him, running
I called my mom just now. She asked "whats wrong?" And I said "nothing". And now I'm crying again. It's difficult when you're the 'cool' daughter in your family and have to be strong everytime. Ma, I'm sad...
I never luah perasaan dekat orang macam bila I penat, or I lapar I tak ada duit semua i never told anyone sebab i dont find the need for them to know about that thing and i selalu end up seksa diri i nangis sorok2 dekat shower. I pernah tak ada duit like rm10 je masatu and i sumpah tak makan seminggu tu i makan nestum je act i boleh je pinjam duit kawan i tapi i dont want to burden them so inrela tak makan seminggu and i turun 1.5kg. I tipu orang i kata i nak diet but the truth is i dont have money HAHAHAH sakai tak?
Since ada yang tanya why, because not me but my mom yang selalu luah masalah dia dan masalah my sibs to me. So, i don't wanna burden her anymore. Thank you for all kind words. If anyone nak luah masalah, can dm me. I'm very good in listening oso giving advice huhu
Are you living a wonderful life?
How should i answer this? hm I don't know lah. Living a wonderful life concist of you living in a happy environment and many more. But for me I always alone and for me it is wonderful for me to be alone. But being along 24/7 is quite lonely and sad. Because this semester I tak ada kelas sama dengan kawan I so I always alone and this semester really teaches me on how to survive without your close friens. yes. To be honest, I did;nt realize that I always alone this semester but one of my friend, Qibo said that he always saw me alone and because of that I tiba tiba rasa lonely and I have no one to eat masa lunch hm It kinda sad to be honest but life must go on kan takkan nak bersedih je kan. Ok berbalik ke question tadi, yes I think I am living a wonderful life, Alhamdulillah for that. I have a very close group of friend in USM I am grteful for that, I spend a lot of time for myself and I know myself more when I am alone. I know who exactly I am.
what's the one thing you can't live without
One thing I cannot live without is My Family, guys family is very important for you because they are the only person in this world cares a lot bout you and I love my family so much. I would never, ever, be happy without them. Another thing I cannot live without is my phone and earphone. Whenever I feel down, alone, sad, happy my phone i always with me hehehehhee I feel like my phone and earphone cuddles me. Alamak lebih dari satu pula haha.
what inspires you the most?
For me it's = Ten from WAYV/NCT/SUPERM
I luv him so much. He has so much more talent than me that I would need 927,282,819 duplicates of myself to have the same amount of talent. LOL. I love his ray of sunshine aura, his smile; the way it lights up a room, his positivity, his amazing dancing/vocals, his personality, and the way he loves his fans and members. Even though I waited for quite a long time for him to comeback for almost 2 years, I knew I would always support him no matter what💖💖💖 also Ten is honestly one of the most inspiring person ever he's sweet kind and talented and I'm so glad i got the chance to be born in a time where he exists te amo ten 😭💜 Ten is very hardworking and passionate in reaching his dreams. I mean imagine being far from home to learn different languages, to be pressured by the idea of debuting as an artist in such a very competitive environment. But this baby did it. He was in the first nct group & There is a reason why he is a superM member and center of WayV. He really aspire me to be better in everything I do. It may not be perfect but at least I know It's worth the sweat and struggle. I always struggle in speaking because I gagap a bit especially when I feel nervous but after I saw Ten I think I should also berusaha just seperti apa yang dia buat just becayse it;s hard doesn;t mean it is impossible, YOU CAN DO IT! and also he can speak 5 language while me still struggling with languages (Arab, Malay, English, Mandarin)lol i suck at ALLL!!!!!! But because of him I always practice my language skill so it will get better.
Just another of many reasons why I freakin love Ten!
do you trust anyone in your life?
I'm sorry but I don't anyone in my life. I have a very serious trust issues. I just can;t trust anyone, I don't know. Sorry.
Do you believe in true love?
Yes.
would you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert
Hm both :)
Sebab I;m more talkative in social media than in real life. Like I don't know lah why tapi I kinda awkward bila jumpa orang for the first time hehehe but sometimes I am okay je dengan orang lol depends on situation. and I'm super extrovert with people I'm comfortable for and it takes quite some time for me to feel comfortable dengan sesiapa je
what's something that offends you
I generally have a cool composure, but I don’t know whenever someone bring the topic about how bad is kpop for you, about my personal preference about something like choice of clothes, songs, movies etc. and paling turn off la ni " Semua benda nak tweet" "Semua benda kau nak buat story" OMGGGG I'M SO MAD! and usually when I get offended it is because someone/something hit a trigger of mine and I couldn't control my emotions. People hit triggers without intent. If you get offended then it's your issue, not theirs. If they are pushing your buttons and you choose to react poorly, it is your CHOICE. So if I get offended, then I chose to let my emotions have control.
what's the thing you most want to achieve before you die
- Can speak 5 languages fluently
(Malay, Korean, Arabic, English & Mandarin)
- Mengerjakan Umrah dan Haji
- Visit Korea and Europe
- Pergi ke concert EXO
- Jumpa KAI, BAEKHYUN & TEN (doesn't matter dkt concert or
fanmeeting)
- Fell in love again.
- Got a piercing
- Had a pet
- Visit Colloseum and Great wall China
- KURUS!!!
Your ideal type :3
- Tanned Skin
- Dance well
- Sing Well
- Asian
- Cute, Pretty Boy
- Funny
- Confident to wear weird stuff
- Have a chocolate abs :3333
- Know what proper hygiene is
- Dress up well
how would your perfect partner treat you
I just want him to be understanding je just faham my life as a kpop fans especially EXO & WAYV . Liking them doesn't mean I like him lesser. I hope he understand that before I met him EXO & WAYV are the one that entertain and teman me when I feel sad or happy. I nak dorang faham je that's all. I taknak dorang sekat I from things I love doing. And I pun tak akan sekat apa apa from them. hehehhehehe.
OKAY LA TU JE AKU MALAS LA DAH NAK EXPOSE DIRI SENDIRI HAHAHA OK BYE ANYEONG!
Heyy you,
Whether you read this or not. I just want to tell you, how I miss you so bad. I miss the time we spent together, it was short but no one can beat it. I will always remember you, please be happy and healthy dear.
People may say i was crazy over you, crying every day only for you but yeah you don't know about it, still even now. I can't get enough of us.
I miss you,
Shikai, your old moon.
Whether you read this or not. I just want to tell you, how I miss you so bad. I miss the time we spent together, it was short but no one can beat it. I will always remember you, please be happy and healthy dear.
People may say i was crazy over you, crying every day only for you but yeah you don't know about it, still even now. I can't get enough of us.
I miss you,
Shikai, your old moon.
Assalamualaikum
bijak ah !
Im so freaking happy today sebab finally yahuuu the long awaited result desasiswa is out tadi and alhamdulillah aku masih dapat dan layak duduk dekat desasiswa which aku tak yakin at all akan dapat. Sebab mycsd sangat teruk ye huhuhuhuhuhu but alhamdullilah aku bersyukur sangat. sebab sewa around penang sangat mahal, bagi aku lah. and i dont have transport so yeah agak susah jika duduk diluar. syukur sangat dapat. terima kasih. ok tu je nak cakap hehehehe. anyway ada lagi 10 hari before raya and ramadhan habis. time sure flies so fast doh serius tak sangka dah nak raya. and aku tak ada baju raya lagi like tak semangat ah hohoho. anyway use waktu yang singkat ini untuk membuat amalan yang baik manatahu di beri anugerah dapat lailatul qadar ke en
cuba teka apa tuu apa tu apa tu???????????????????????ye benar betul tu!
bijak ah !
Im so freaking happy today sebab finally yahuuu the long awaited result desasiswa is out tadi and alhamdulillah aku masih dapat dan layak duduk dekat desasiswa which aku tak yakin at all akan dapat. Sebab mycsd sangat teruk ye huhuhuhuhuhu but alhamdullilah aku bersyukur sangat. sebab sewa around penang sangat mahal, bagi aku lah. and i dont have transport so yeah agak susah jika duduk diluar. syukur sangat dapat. terima kasih. ok tu je nak cakap hehehehe. anyway ada lagi 10 hari before raya and ramadhan habis. time sure flies so fast doh serius tak sangka dah nak raya. and aku tak ada baju raya lagi like tak semangat ah hohoho. anyway use waktu yang singkat ini untuk membuat amalan yang baik manatahu di beri anugerah dapat lailatul qadar ke en
Assalamualaikum and Hai everyone!
jeng jeng jeng hehhehehe
Semalam aka Hari Jumaat (26th April 2019)
Aku ada event iaitu dinner. What so special about this dinner is that dinner ni bukan beshe beshe okay. Luar biasa. Only in USM perkara sebegini terjadi ehek. Okay baiklah, Dinner ni special sebab hanya terbuka kepada anak anak perak ataupun dekat USM dipanggil sebagai 'Kusisdari' dan dinner ni akan dihadiri oleh our beloved which is DYMM Sultan Perak and Permaisuri.
I'm so excited for this dinner to happen, and i was one of the earliest to pay and daftar for this dinner lol (damn son) Because this might not happen for the rest of my life like this is maybe the only chance for me to experience that! and i;m not gonna lose it hehehe so yeah gotta be the earliest bird kurkurkur. never been this excited before haha i'm a loyal perakian doh serius.
And i didnt see the hardship to come because i was to dumb that time.
Dah nama pun dinner dengan sultan and segala kerabat diranja nya. ofc lah it wont be that easy and simple kan hohoho and yeah their rules and protocol was sooo ketat and crazy i nearly cried when first time i baca all the rules like damn wow so complicated sia but sis not complaining tho HAHAHA okay but benda beshe2 pun tak dibernarkan buat.
1. Must wear baju kurung and bertemakan batik (but they changed it last min sis dk why). aku dah beli baju batik semata nak g i=dinner ni and they changed it last min tf kan erghhh ok like if you want to wear kebaya must traditional and longar ok no ketat2! and cannot wear kurung moden ok!
2. Cannot pakai shawl or wtv is it except for Bawal, Hijab sarung ONLY! and must pakai butterfly punya style or like ikan bawak tu. must wear hijab for muslimah and non muslim kena ikat rambut kemas2 like sup bunjut tu ehek
3. Kasut haruslah bersarung only and without heels! and no accesories yang melampau and over
4. No makeup!!!!!1 Wear lipbalm without color only (my stubbornass still wears lipstick hahaha)
so yeah tu one of the rules lah. amacam? mcam kanak kanak di asrama tidak? HAHAHAHAHA but yeah sis tak complain over la lek je because this only happen once in life so yeah sis ikut je HAHAHA but sumpahlah nampak noob gila berpakaian sebegini kerna sudah lama tidak memakainya HAHAH but yeah bila lagi kan nak jadi budak asrama pergi prep malam HAHAH
and yeah
and during that dinner akan ada sesi beramah mesra bersama sultan and permaisurinya gitu and we as a rakyat perlu la menyembah (is it the correct way to tulis ek idk) to sultan dan permaisuri so yeah adalah cara cara yang perlu dibuat like kena jalan dulu dua langkah and angkat sembah. and angkat sembah tu ada cara sendiri ok!! buka lah youtube jika mahu tahu lebih lanjut kehkehkeh and yeah sebabkan yang datang tu adalah raja muda dihilir and bukan sultan so angle sembah tu jadi lain sikit lah dia mcm bawah sikit drpd to the sultan and yeah we get the chance to sembang2 and beramah mesra with them wow
so yeah lupa nak cakap the dinner was at Hotel Equatorial Penang damn big sial lawa nak mampos
nah lihatlah gambar kenangan ini ehek
me and deanah
This was during the taklimat a day before dinner tersebut and we were told tips and adab2 makan, how to pergi tandas, bangun, sembah and so on lah it was funny and i gain a lot of new friends also new infornation lah kan hehehe
Look at the view from our ballroom. Cantik kan? this doesnt feel like i'm in penang at all doh. Sumpah cantik and very the nice lah view dia. i dont know if you guys can see but kawasan hotel ni actually berada di tengah2 kawasan rumah orang kaya kaya aka datuk and so on lah no wonder la hotel ni 5 stars and lawa gila!!!!!!!
Me, Farah and Deanah
We arrieved early than expected so yeah jalan jalan dahulu before duduk because during that time baru pukul 6 pm and dinner start at 8.30 ergh frust menunggu je sebenarnya so yeah we jalan2 and tour around hotel and we snap snap pic because we can! HEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE AND yeah if you guys perasan we all kinda wear the same color kan hahaha damn color coordinated gitu soulmate ke tu hahaha
We are obsessed with the mirrors in this hotel
Cantik sangat! and very cantik lah iphone xr kepunyaan deanah ini like wow sis sumpah cantik saya tak mampu lagi nak meng-own sebuah iphone itu hehehe gotu merelet dia HAHAHAHHA
and yeah we tangkap gambar like lama gila to kill time aih sumpah lama gila noks dekat sana menanti ketibaan raja ni and sis lapar teruk masa ni hm
and the pictures goes
My beautiful friend farah!
My very the cantik tinggi friend, Deanah!
Me and Deanah
Farah and me
Farah with Deanah
Ft our beautiful and georgeos looking shoes
Thank you Deanah for sponsoring my shoes for this dinner ehek
So yeah my hungry ass ofc need to read and know what we gonna eat tonight yummy!
It was good and delicious especially their pembuka selera very the yummy!!!!
I would rate the whole dish 10/10 but not their main course lah sbb food dia sangat biasa hehe
So yeah this is ther main dishes yummy!
Us (Daeanah, Farah and me) with Su
She;s one of the committe and orang kuat for this Santapan/Dinner gitu
WE SUPPORT YOU SISTER!!!! And yeah the sembang santai and beramah mesra with Sultan and permaisuri was great and I nervous siaaa sumpah nervous doh idk how my face look like hahhaha sumpah serabooot agaknya! but yeah the permaisuri was so ramah and she said good luck for my degree yahu!!!
love you too !
So yeah everything is great and eventhough we cannot and i dont have a picture of sultan with me or any candid pic of him for this dinner but sokay lah i dont mind. It was an amazing night, i meet a lot of new people and menambahkan friendlist saya heehe. Im so happy eventhough it was a tiring dinner ergh but yeah dont mind ah . As long as i get a chance to experience something great! and because of this i can share my experience with you guys hehehehe and Alhamdulillah for that :D
eh lupa nak cakap, omaigod guys!
one of the pegawai protokol (is it?) so smart guys! sis is tergoda! i dont know who he is nor his name but he is soooooo attractive and garunk! i like it! HAHAHHAHA bodo je
if you;re reading this wahai pegawai yang kacak berbaju batik hitam aum
i hope you;re doing well and please stop smoking heheh
oklah bye if got jodoh we surely will meet again soon
BYE!
so yeah
bye
that;s all for todays story
bye
assalamaualaikum!
Assalamualaikum dan hai semua!
Orang selalu kata "kena kerap call ibu dan ayah" tbh aku cuba call everyday okay bukan la everyday tapi i try to call frequently cuma 2x a week and itu pun aku rasa tak tahu nak cakap apa...hm sadly yes i don't know what to talk about and my mum also macam taknak cakap or tak tanya apa apamaybe she penat or else. and the convorsation become shorter and shorter so yeah because of that i decided to stop calling my mum selalu and i called her once a week so that i can have something to talk with her. TBH, i have a weird habit where i feel like semua orang don't want to dengar my cerita and i scared that i might bored them so i rarely open up to anyone even my family including my friends. it is not that i don't want to , I REALLY WANT TO TELL THEM/ it just that i feel anxiety...
I tak suka anyone rasa burden or buang masa dengar my story so yeah but now aku cuba bagitahu everything dekat my mum. Aku bagitahu dia aku pergi mana harini, buat apa, bila nak keluar aku cakap dekat dia. and sometime she akan bluetick and aku rasa benda tu biasa well mak mak kan sometime dia ingat dia dah balas but in reality dia belum pun balas hahaa and she akan balas bila next aku ws dia hihiiihii I used to really hate bluetick sbb i think it is a rude and cruel way to don't want to talk to someone. I still hide my bluetick untill now. Because I can't stand overthinking almost everytime hm.
So itulah dia nukilan dari saya pada hari ini
Maaf jika bosan,
MUAH XOXO
and lastly,
I would like to say that tinggal lagi 2 minggu 3 hari before ramadan.
May Allah bless you with happiness and grace your home with warmth and and peace!
and
May Allah give us the best ramadan and grab this chances to become a better and good muslim.
Thank you for spending your time reading my not-so-best-post
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Assalamualaikum and have a nice day!
Aku selalu terfikir,
adakah aku ni menjadi beban
beban kepada ibu dan ayah aku,
atau pada orang sekeliling?
Okay
Harini aku nak bercerita tentang my first experience
like my very first time doing thing like this hehehe
Okay
eh banyak nya okay
HAHHAHAH
OKAY
LOL
Baiklah
Ni first time aku join event yang macam ni
Im not expecting yang aku akan buat benda ni hehehe
Ni adalah event under SKJR. Okay apa kah itu skjr
baiklah
skjr bermaksud Sekreteriat Keselamatan Jalan Raya
so basically all we do is to do benda yang berkaitan dengan keselamatan di jalan raya
haaa function tak?
okay ni sangat membantu sebenarnya
hohohoho
baiklah
yang ni adaah event yang sangat berguna iaitu jom gunakan signal
event ni basically all we do is to pegang sepanduk, poster and banyak lagi la
and we all akan duduk dekat tempat strategik untuk makhluk2 yang selalunya akan liat untuk
memberikan signal
jadi ada beberapa tempat la sebenarnya
aku dapat dekat dengan final destination so ramai orang akan lalu sana ahhahaha bas apa semua la
so move on,
okay so atas ni adalah poster yang aku buat hehe, cute kan?
ok kenapa ada tangguh dekat situ
ok sebenarnya petang hari kejadian tu hujan so
pengarah projek suruh aku edit kot2 la
as a backup
but
alhamdulillah
everything went well like as planned
walaupun hujan agak rintik dan
susah sebenarnya tapi ada payung
fuh
Ni pengalaman baru bagi aku
and
aku rasa seronok sangat
rasa macam singkat je masa dia
rasa macam tak puas
seronok dapat expose dengan benda baru
serius
aku sebenarnya tak suka buat benda macam ni
tapi alhamdulillah
i enjoy every moment
hehehhe
